*Man Im a neerrddddddd*

NOTE: I am still on newgrounds for a little bit because I have to finish judging the voice acting contest, voice act for several people, write a few things, and other mess that I just left in the middle of finishing it. However, I am only on for only a few hours every week. Since limiting myself I have increases my GPA by .3 points, now having a 3.2 out of 4.0, and am not nearly as depressed as i once was before. I have been able to focus much clearer, i can think about my future a lot better, and I havent screwed myself over in the long run too much hehe.

Also, I WILL STILL BE VOICE ACTING. i talked ot my supervisor and he suggested it would be a good idea to continue voice acting and writing since that is what I will be doing for parts of my future job. I just will limit myself. I thought that I didnt have the self-control to limit myself, because of my excruciating OCD, but I think that I can if I simply stay away from newgrounds for most of the time. I would prefer if you were to send your script to MY YAHOO, but if you dont have one send it here because I will be checking up on things every week or so.

AND I TOOK MY ACT YEEAAHHH!!!

So no, I am not completely quitting Newgrounds... rather i am not going to be on every single day like I use to. Ill be on probably every Saturday. So stop pestering me when you see me in the forums. >:I

killer_snail_with_a_jetpack@yahoo.com

Post before limiting myself to once a week.
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In 2007, I joined Newgrounds in hope of getting some of my creativity noticed. I began by doing the easiest thing I could think of, making crappy stick animations in flash. I was 14 at the time and really had no skills whatsoever. I had an imagination but I couldnt really jot it down on paper. I tried, submited some of the crapiest animations you will ever see in your entire life, and was slammed in the face with extremely low scores and a few blames. These embarrassing horrifying flashes are how most animators start out anyway, but I realized I just didnt have the talent for animating and found it tedious instead of fun. Instead I went onto making music and found that I actually had somewhat of a talent in music production. However, most of the time I used pre-set loops and couldnt afford a program that would expand my abilities other than pre-set loops. So, after 50 songs, I quit making music in August 2008 hoping to go back to flash and make a game. After a few months of hard work and figuring out coding, I submited this. That still is my favorite creation of mine and probably always will be. I decided I wasnt good enough to continue flash, however.

In October of 2008, I really started getting noticed. I realized that my true 'talent' was from voice acting. It took me a hell of a long time to get to that point, but woh it was worth it. I finally reached my dream of getting noticed. I tried as hard as I could, bought an AT2020 podcasting mic, and emailed many artists offering my help. With that I was involved in many projects that got front page and tens of thousands of views. Some of the outcomes from me voice acting really suprised me and made me somewhat overrated. ESPECIALLY in this. That wasnt even true voice acting. Whatever, it makes people laugh so im happy. After 11 trophies and months and months of practicing,over 10 million people had heard my voice and laughed. I felt really achieved but was blinded by this achievement, making it more than it was. As soon as I reached the end of summer, everything went downhill.

School. Good god. I hadnt focused myself in school since 8th grade. I focused myself on Newgrounds. I left my life and reality behind and engulfed my mind on newgrounds. The thing is, I loved every fucking bit of it. The forums, the hilarious flash videos, the kick ass songs that touch my heart and make me want to dance, the community of programmers, artists, musicians, designers, voice actors, animators, poets, writers, and everything else by everyone else that was newgrounds was my life. In my time here I have spoken to HUNDREDS of people. I was involved in over 200 projects, most that didnt see the light of day but all in all helped train me in my abilities. It was heaven. I loved chatting with other artists so much. I enjoyed going on StickAM and laughing my ass off with the hilarious guys and gals that come on there from NG. I smiled at the creativity I saw here and always was baffled at the amazing and spectacular talent this place has. Hell, Newgrounds could make a movie. Some of my best friends have come from this place. And they live half way across the world! Sam T, SpikeValentine, and Denzel-Crocker were my three main friends here. I talked to these guys almost every day, doing projects, writing, designing, and creating. I learned a lot from this place and will use this knowledge in my future career, if I ever get to that point...

Because I was so consumed by Newgrounds, I lost touch with reality. I didnt care about school. I didnt care about life or getting a job or getting a degree in college or anything. Bah, Ill do that paper another day I want to go on Newgrounds! Hey Nick, want to go to a party? No thanks I want to finish this game im trying to make. Want to go out to dinner? Nah Ill stay home tonight. Wanna live? No. I want to sit at my computer all day, every day, and live in this perfect world where I can freely scream cock at the top of my lungs without a care.

So what about school? Well I am a senior. Seniors need to do their ACT to get into college. Im pretty much the only kid in my class who hasnt taken the ACT. I am addicted to the computer. I can focus on anything school has to offer. I am failing my classes. I need to stand up, walk through the pile of crap on my floor, away from the dim light of my computer screen, open my door, go to my front door of my house, open it, and go out into the sunlight of life. Damn that sun burns, but its better than sitting here living with my parents for the rest of my life hoping I get a trophy for some shitty movie I just made now isnt it? I crave getting noticed, i admit that. I crave becomeing a game designer. In order to become one, I need to get into a game company that can pay me for my creativity. In order to do that I need to get into a college that can teach me the skills I need to become a game designer. In order to do that I need to get a good grade on my ACT score. In order to do that I need to study in school, focus on learning, and all in all make good grades in class. And of course in order to do all of this, I need to get off Newgrounds.

Man Im sorry to say this, but I am leaving guys. I meed to focus on life. Currently I am extremley depressed and a major cause of this depression is newgrounds taking life away from me. It might be amazing but life is more amazing. I can not just sit here and let each day go by without me getting up and seeing the world. I cant just be lazy and not study, i need money and I need a job and I need friends and I need a girlfriend, and I need a LIFE. I loved it here. Loved loved loved loved it wayyyy too much. Everything here was great. Truly. Its hard to leave, but I need to. In fact I am limiting myself on the computer. Like an hour a day or so. I might get on for skype, checking email, and school work, but other than that I am leaving!

I am halting all projects currently. Some stuff will be submitted with me co-authored because I voiced for it already. Jeff The Dinosour is still in progress, but it will be veerrryyy slow seeing as SimonG is the only one working on it right now. It will come out thought I promise. I will submit art works as well as some audio works every now and then.

So guys. Its been great. Thanks a lot to those who have supported me, and an extra big thanks to the fags who hated me because they showed me what I could do to improve. Except techno of course, hes just a fag. ;) <3 u techno. I might be back in a year or so when Im in college and give you all an update of how my life is. But until then, so long!

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So now I leave you with one word and one word only. Take it as some poetic inspirational quote if you must, or take it as just a funny five lettered word.

Cocks.