I am no longer depressed, things have been a lot better for me lately. I feel like a total IDIOT for making that post saying I was leaving... WTF was I thinking? Why should I let some silly depression stop me from doing what I love most? I have a serious passion for creating and there is no way in hell I will ever let anything get in the way of that passion. And now ive basically screwed my self over because It will be very difficult for me to come back here, due to the trolling and such... but you know what, screw the trolls. I am not gonna let that get me down either.

I do apologize for creating such a scene, attracting attention to myself for reasons im still not sure about. I made some rash decisions and now know it is a dumb idea to talk about your personal life online. There is no point in telling people you dont know, about your depression or how you just got some girlfriend.

I really thank those who sent me pms and comments though, they really made me feel a lot better. I am just a teen suffering what most teens go through, i just had a different perspective on it and thought to much about it which got me depressed and gave me the annoying "oh woe is me" attitude. But all that is over with and I really dont want to talk about it anymore, its finished and done and I feel retarded.

Anyway, I have thought long and hard and have decided to come back, but simply limit myself so i can maintain the good grades I have gotten while I have been gone from Newgrounds. It will be hard to get to the point that I was at again, but I do know what to say and not say in certain situations online. For example, I frequently boasted about awards I received... because I was excited so why not right? Well, I realized no one but me was excited and it would just make others angry. Whatever none of that matters, Im just going to come back here with a new approach and try to be as involved with the community as I can, collabing, voice acting, and designing.

It feels great to be back here, I truly missed it with all of its incredible creators and kids with these gigantic imaginations. Oh and I havent seen a cock for nearly 2 months now, but im sure i will see plenty now that im back on newgrounds.

So yeah, im back. Troll away trolls, welcome back friends, and comment away regulars.

And yet again, sorry for all of the confusion and stuff.

Things have been a lot better for me lately. I am no longer depressed, which made me realize I was an absolute retard for making a post declaring i would leave newgrounds wtf was i thinking I know trolls would come after me like zombies in left 4 dead.... anyway, I have decided to continue voice acting, but I simply will not be that active in the forums anymore. I have decided that leaving newgrounds completely was a bit rash, but then again us teens make those rash decisions now dont we? I apologize for the confusion and the "oh woe is me attitude". I had a huge 3 month break, with some lurking I must admit, but that absence from Newgrounds has really made me feel so much better and I am ready to come back with a brand new attitude and approach to the way I handle things. I realized that I have received a lot of haters on this site because I constantly whore myself out by talking about awards Ive won and bla bla bla, which is something I can not do because of the position I am in. Lots of people apparently visit my userpage, I had no idea, so I will pay better attention to the things I say from now on.

Basically, I will be as involved as I can be in projects by voice acting. I've really learned some new skills and might get a brand spanking new mic for christmas *oh goody!*

And I know as soon as I update this post, trolls from all around will be like ohh i thought u said u left fffbfbfbfbf >:( Well, yes I did leave and I did say I was going to slave forever because I was DEPRESSED. Like screw life im gonna go shoot myself depressed. I would sit around the house just feeling emptiness. Well, im a lot better now and have come to terms with reality. Im no different than anyone else, plenty of teens feel that way. My GPA rose to a 3.4, I got a great girlfriend, I learned some new skills in art, and i raised my self-esteem by bunches. So now that i feel better, im coming back because this sort of thing is my passion and im not letting any troll or depression get in the way of that. Winter break is in a day, so im gonna start finishing up some projects and submitting them.

Just to clarify guys, I was not lying to get attention or some messed up stuff like that... i said things i shouldnt have said because of how awful I felt. I even felt worse after i made the posts because i got some hate mail from some of the users here i have respected and looked up to ever since i discovered this site. I did some research on why i was feeling so depressed, and as it turns out I was feeling that way because of the medicine i was taking. I currently take Strettera, which has a side effect of rising certain hormones in your brain in order to keep you focused, its an ADHD medication. Those hormones, when risen, can potentially cause depression for certain teens. Ive lowered my dosage by a bit and feel sooo much better.

So yeah im back, im just going to limit myself... and im not going to be such an attention whore.

Things to look forward to...

- The Par Box 2 - 30% complete
- More voice acting
- The 5th Voice ACting Competetion
- MAYBE a point n click adventure
- Some more art
- An experimental animation